URAAYU @ LJ

location: out of the loop

mood: uncomfortable

I've seen this quote a lot before.. and before, I thought I could relate to it. Liking a boy and knowing he isn't into you or you know you're just another thing to turn to. But this can be seen in many ways.. only today did I realize how deep the meaning of this could be. Only today did this quote become so confusing. 

Right after going to blog about my current situation, I ran into this quote, and that's when it all fell together. I asked.. "How? How can you stop yourself once you know? When do you stop if you're not sure? How do you stop? What if you don't know if you are a priority or an option? How do you find out? What if you thought you were a priority, and it turns out you're not? What then? Wouldn't it be too late to simply stop making that person a priority? 

My friend told me today you should only see or talk to more than one guy if you're an option, or you think you are. But, what if you don't know? Then by talking to another guy.. wouldn't that mess things up? And if you were to just talk about it.. how would you know if you were being told the truth? I mean.. especially when you're with someone you're not technically dating. Then it's okay to see other people? So what if you're giving 100% to him, when he's only giving 75%? How would you know?

All I know is it's enough to make me just forget about it. I never thought being in a relationship could be nearly as painful as being lonely.