URAAYU @ LJ

 "Never Make Anyone Your Priority, When To Them You Are Just An Option."

I've seen this quote a lot before.. and before, I thought I could relate to it. Liking a boy and knowing he isn't into you or you know you're just another thing to turn to. But this can be seen in many ways.. only today did I realize how deep the meaning of this could be. Only today did this quote become so confusing. 

Right after going to blog about my current situation, I ran into this quote, and that's when it all fell together. I asked.. "How? How can you stop yourself once you know? When do you stop if you're not sure? How do you stop? What if you don't know if you are a priority or an option? How do you find out? What if you thought you were a priority, and it turns out you're not? What then? Wouldn't it be too late to simply stop making that person a priority? 

My friend told me today you should only see or talk to more than one guy if you're an option, or you think you are. But, what if you don't know? Then by talking to another guy.. wouldn't that mess things up? And if you were to just talk about it.. how would you know if you were being told the truth? I mean.. especially when you're with someone you're not technically dating. Then it's okay to see other people? So what if you're giving 100% to him, when he's only giving 75%? How would you know?

All I know is it's enough to make me just forget about it. I never thought being in a relationship could be nearly as painful as being lonely.

Hi again.. I'll probably be posting a lot of pointless random stuff on here most of the time.. since I'm bored and my number one priority is to get my layout fixed up to my satisfaction. I'll also be posting old entires from my blogspot blog.. because I can.

So, Friday I saw American Gangster.. it was pretty good. At first I thought it was alright and whatever.. but then it got really juicy when everyone found out how heartless Denzel Washington's character was. Then everything else fell into place :]
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Something stolen from Blazin' As!an that was very meaningful to me..

"I believe God is deeply saddened by this, just as we are, but for years we've been telling God to get out of our school, to get out of our government, and to get out of our lives. And being the gentleman He is, I believe He has calmly backed out. How can we expect God to give us His blessing and His protection if we demand He leave us alone?" "It's a lie. It's a bunch of sad strangers photographed beautifully, and all the glittering assholes who appreciate art say it's beautiful, 'cause that's what they want to see. But the people in the photos are sad and alone, but the pictures make the world seem beautiful. so the exhibition is reassuring, which makes it a lie, and everyone loves a big fat lie."

Oyasumi; got school tomorrow and I wanna spend the rest of my night reading my November Issue of Newtype :]